Back and Better than Ever! (6)

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Warning: very long blog. I expect you Despair people to read all of it. It might blow to have to read it all, so suck it up. :up: :upsidedown:

I think I’m just a bit too idealistic sometimes.

I was looking at wedding dresses because there was a special guide on MSN. I know that I’m going to get married one day, but I’m only going to get married once and never divorce, so whoever is going to be my husband will probably date me for years and years. Anyway, back to the dresses, I’m going to wear white. I know white is supposedly saved for virgins, but fuck that. So it’s going to be white, it’s going to be strapless and have a somewhat bareback. My bridesmaids will all wear a different dress, but the same color, assuming that I can find such a thing. The color isn’t decided yet, but of course something pastel. It’s going to be outside in a rose garden or something. For the ceremony, I’m going to invite the close family and friends; everybody else can show up to the reception. Depending on my budget, I may or may not have a translator at the ceremony (for my parents). It’s going to be in the Spring/Summer. Hopefully, I’ll still have my long hair by then and it’ll be nice and wonderful.

Oh, one more thing, I’m also going to have a somewhat traditional Vietnamese ceremony. That consists of the groom’s family coming to the bride’s family’s house and I think it’s either asking for my family’s blessing or to take me away from my family. I don’t know how to do that part just yet. But the groom’s family has to bring the traditional gifts of fruit, food, a pig, liquor, and whatever else is there. We’ll wear the traditional ao dai and pray to my ancestors. Oh, and as for gifts, I’m just going to say money. I don’t need someone to give me a cheap toaster. I don’t care too much for the amount; if you can give a certain amount, then do so, if you can’t, then that’s fine.

Anyway, that’s a lot of wedding talk and I have years to go before I even need to think about that. :tongue: Right now, I need to focus on my studies and getting my social life back together. I plan to join a sorority (not a sleazy one), join my culture club, and party a bit once I’m back at school… in addition to all my classes. :cute: The one thing I’m not looking for is a relationship. After this whole ordeal, I’m not going to be ready to open up for a while, nor am I going to fall quickly either.

I wonder how nice people think I am sometimes. I try to be, but recently, a friend told me that I have to stop being so nice, to stop feeling as if I need to please people. That doesn’t mean to stop being civil, but to stop being nice when I don’t need to be. I can be mean and I can be evil, but how many people actually know that? A lot of the times I laugh at others’ misery… :up: oh, and at stupid people.

Anyway, enough about my personality. Life update time: I’m meeting new people and all are really great. Oh, I also started doing my Christmas shopping. I currently have ten people on my list, six I’ve already purchased gifts for (none of which are gift cards thankfully), two that are taken care of, and the other two I don’t quite know what to get just yet. Rawr. My poor bank account. Oh well, that’s what my job is for! Lol.

Lately, I’ve been feeling more confident with myself and it’s mostly due to the people I’ve met and the ones I’ve talked to. In my MySpace, my comment box says, “I think Maria is a goddess.” A friend told me that in order to be a goddess, I have to acknowledge the fact that I’m pretty much better than everyone else. :tongue: There can be “sub-goddesses,” but I’m supreme. That comment made me feel pretty special, so yes, I am a goddess.

So this is long enough and can you believe there’s more?! Actually, there isn’t. I decided to catch up on a few movies and the reviews are underneath. Enjoy!

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