Sleep deprivation and that is life.

20.10.06

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It’s been a long, sleepless week for me. Lots of things are running around and I’ve yet to deal with them all, sadly enough. I had two exams this week; both have sufficient results. But in the midst of studying, I chose not to sleep as often or as early as I should’ve, so it’s been long.

And that’s just one issue.

Life just seems like one big humungo rollercoaster. It starts off pretty good, ya know? Then you go through a couple loops and fast turns. It’ll give you a break sometimes… when it’s climbing up the steep hill where it’ll just let you fall at a tremendous speed. The sad thing is, you can’t do anything to change the pace or speed of your rollercoaster; you just gotta take it for what it’s worth, whether or not you’re happy with some things, like having a bird smack your face or ducking before you hit that tree branch. (Unrealistic in a real rollercoaster, I’m sure, but you get the idea)

A friend told me this week that I’m trying to grow up too fast. For me, I think my fun time is over, at least for now. I don’t want to act foolish or stupid. I want to make decisions in my life that are good, that are beneficial, and every now and then I’ll let a foolish one slide. Most importantly, I want to be a good role model. To whom, I don’t know yet, but you have to set examples in order to be one, right?

Life is always going to be a mess, and even if you try to clean it up, it’ll fall apart again. It reminds me of the video/DVD section in the children’s area of the library. No matter how much I try to organize it and keep it tidy, a whole mess of kids and their families will come within the next hour and mess everything up. Except I want to do it anyway.

I’m not sure if this blog had an actual purpose. I’m just spewing thoughts out for now. I do have something else I’d like to talk about, but that can wait for another blog.

Good day to you all and God bless.

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Lexie responded:

Saturday, October 21, 2006 @ 3:38 am GMT-8

Sorry about the loss of sleep and good luck with those exams,

I guess I can relate. But of course, everything will fall into place soon. God bless
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Leslie commented:

Saturday, October 21, 2006 @ 10:50 am GMT-8

I get what you are saying. & sometimes our blogs don’t have a real purpose from the some perspective. But.. it helps to get things out.
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Alice typed:

Saturday, October 21, 2006 @ 1:02 pm GMT-8

that is so true, life is like a rollercoaster *remembers analogy* I hope your rollercoaster gets easier for you soon *hugs*

I dont think you can try and grow up to fast really, i think your friend is wrong. Growth/maturity is something that adapts naturally with experience and the fact you want to be a role model is brillaint and means you are gorwing at your own pace as your maturity is developing doesnt mena you cant have fin just means you find different things to your friends fun
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Rach remarked:

Monday, October 23, 2006 @ 3:30 pm GMT-8

Everyone’s life seems to be hectic and like a rollercoaster lately. I know what you mean about wanting to be a good role model. I’d like to sign up for Big Brother, Big Sister, maybe you could do that.
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Moonie wrote:

Tuesday, October 24, 2006 @ 7:11 pm GMT-8

Well, I can kind of see where your friend is coming from but I donâ€™t necessarily agree with that â€œsayingâ€.. Well, not fully, anyway. People who say that tend to think of it as a negative. It’s not wrong to accept that you are responsible for yourself and your life. Growing up doesn’t mean you have to give up the fun in your life, some people seem to think that. Not saying you think that.. Just talking about what Iâ€™ve observed. It’s all a balancing act, really.

You are very right about how life works. Life is tough. Challenges come at us every day. It can be overwhelming at times. But at the same time, allowing one’s self to become so deeply overwhelmed by responsibility and the challenges of life that one forgets to enjoy life isnâ€™t good.

Sometimes I become so immersed in worry and responsibility that I put aside my happiness, but itâ€™s something Iâ€™ve been working on that. No matter how tough life can get at times, I try to always remember the good things, too.. No matter how small they may be. Then again., the best things in my life always seem to be small..or rather, things that people take for granted.
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Natalie answered:

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 @ 4:43 pm GMT-8

Yeah, I have been having a hard time sleeping too lately. Well hopefully you can get some sleep soon.
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Manda commented:

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 @ 4:54 pm GMT-8

Good luck with the sleeping problems It sucks about the growing up thing. You want to be young and carefree, but at the same time, you know you can’t afford to be like that anymore. Growing up sure sucks sometimes.
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Julie remarked:

Thursday, October 26, 2006 @ 7:30 pm GMT-8

Yea, sleeping instead of studying wouldn’t have been a good choice either. I hope now that your exams are over you can catch up on that needed sleep. It’s great that you want to be a good role model. You don’t have to have a specific person to want to impress or anything, you can even be your own role model. *hugs*
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