Remembering
23.12.07
Posted under: Life, Memes, Relationships, Thoughts
I got tagged by Joana and Julie for this one. You’re supposed to copy the entire list of months, but I don’t want the clutter, so I’ll just lead you to a post that has all the other months you’ll need.
Guidelines:
- Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
- Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months (see below).
- Pick your month of birth (see below).
- Highlight the traits that apply to you.
- Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.
- Let the person who tagged you know when you’ve done it!
As for tagging, well, how about I tag the first twelve people (who haven’t done this yet) that comment on this blog? I would choose people, but most of them have already been tagged.
OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
Where is it that we get our memory? I was reading a National Geographic magazine for the month of November and the main cover story was about memory. There is a woman who can remember every single day of her life to every single detail. There is a man who can’t remember anything within a few hours and thus ends up doing some tasks twice since he can’t remember if he’s done it before.
Sometimes you can remember the most trivial of details and forget the important tasks. You can forget where you placed your keys, but you can remember the exact score of a football game from five years ago. What controls that? I believe, last I read, that scientists to this day haven’t really been able to specifically pinpoint where exactly in our brains that happens, but it’s such a puzzling thing to wonder, is it not?
I can’t remember what I did a week ago, but I can remember what I did one year ago. Unfortunately, I wish I didn’t. It’s not that it is particularly a bad memory; it is a really good memory. It’s the fact that it is a good memory that pains me to remember it.
It was our second date. He picked me up in his father’s car. Just the other night, I had joked about having dyed my hair blond. I was really dying it back to black again, but he wouldn’t have known that until seeing me. I was wearing all black and so was he. We had sushi at a really nice place with the weirdest names for their rolls such as the “Pikachu Roll” or the “Lewinsky Roll.” (Yes, there was a “Clinton Roll” too). Afterwards, we walked across the street and had some coffee on a really comfy couch.
We then proceeded to visit a Japanese Garden in a nearby city. Supposedly, a few scenes from the movie Memoirs of a Geisha were filmed there. It was magnificent. The garden had a spectacular view as it was up in the hills. We actually got lost on the way there and went on this winding road until we figured we had gone too far. The garden was quiet and very serene. They had some free bamboo sticks with he proceeded to take home to give to his friends and play with as well.
We drove to another city with a particular ice cream store because I had a coupon for it. I forget the ice cream we shared… I believe it had something to do with a bunch of blueberries. I was surprised the ice cream store will still open considering the fact that it was Christmas eve. The city was perfect. It was quaint and had a little tiny park. There was a drinking fountain that had three different bowls: the adult, child, and dog bowl. It really had a small town charm, kind of like Stars Hollow from Gilmore Girls.
We walked around for about an hour or so until he decided to take me home. However, it was about two hours before my curfew so we decided to spend some time in my city park until we lost track of time and realized it was two hours later.
It was a magical night and right now, I wish I didn’t remember it. I wish there was a switch, or a box I could put all of these memories into so I wouldn’t have to remember anymore. The sad thing is, I keep thinking about the fact that he’s probably not doing what I’m doing: reminiscing. He probably doesn’t care to remember this day or even remember that it was this day, one year ago that I just had everything confirmed for me: He was special. He is special. He’s probably doing something else with someone else and is not going to remember what this day one year ago meant to me, meant for us.
I apologize for boring you with the details of our date, but I just felt like I needed to let this out and continue to grieve. I hope all of you are having a good holiday season and are enjoying it with all of your friends and family. Happy holidays and have a happy new year.
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Tags: boyfriend, Christmas Eve, comfort, dating, dreams, emotional pain, happiness, heartbroken, love, memories, pain, past, physical pain, pleasures, relationship
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Sara wrote:
Monday, December 24, 2007 @ 2:52 am GMT-8
Of all the memories I had, the only ones I want to forget are the bad ones. It’s wonderful that you two shared those special moments and even if you’re apart now don’t you feel that it made you happy, even if just for one day?
Ann expressed:
Monday, December 24, 2007 @ 4:15 am GMT-8
It’s always the bad memories I can never forget.. You never know… he might remember. Feel better about it soon, sweetheart.
Julie stated:
Monday, December 24, 2007 @ 11:44 am GMT-8
That was a beautiful date and I can understand why you still remember it. Hopefully with time the beauty of the date will be all that you remember, and the pain will not be associated with it.
Lixin announced:
Thursday, December 27, 2007 @ 1:31 am GMT-8
That was interesting.
And … Pikachu Roll. Lol. That sounded like a wonderful date.
Eilidh wrote:
Thursday, December 27, 2007 @ 6:59 am GMT-8
I can very much relate to that feeling, I had a day like that with a boy and I do wish I could put all the amazingly happy memories in this little box and not have to miss that time… it’s so hard.
Emily replied:
Friday, December 28, 2007 @ 1:23 pm GMT-8
Awe, that sounds like such a romantic time and it sucks to know you have to move on. I used to reminisce about my past all the time, but you learn to create new, better memories
Deanna voiced:
Saturday, December 29, 2007 @ 12:51 pm GMT-8
Memory is a very interesting subject. I don’t know why we remember what we remember, but I’m glad that we do. I understand you pain about thinking about love lost. But you will find someone new and make some new memories.
Maria voiced:
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 5:50 pm GMT-8
Sara,
Yes, I’m glad to know that I was happy, at least for a day. I just wish that it wasn’t such a bittersweet memory, you know?
Maria answered:
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 5:51 pm GMT-8
Ann,
The bad ones are ones I want to forget too, but it’s just during a time like this that makes me so reminiscent. Thanks for the wishes.
Maria said:
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 5:51 pm GMT-8
Julie,
I hope that someday, there won’t be pain either.
Maria announced:
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 5:53 pm GMT-8
Lixin,
Yes, that was a wonderful date. I laugh at the sushi names all the time. There is a “Silicon Valley” roll too and some other interesting ones I can’t remember off the top of my head right now.
Maria expressed:
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 5:58 pm GMT-8
Eilidh,
It is hard, but I think that in order to help us both, we just really have to keep looking forward. It’s not the easiest thing to do, but that’s what we should be doing.
Maria shouted:
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 6:00 pm GMT-8
Emily,
I’m looking forward to new and better memories, but like everything else, that will take time.
Maria typed:
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 6:01 pm GMT-8
Deanna,
That is very true. Without the bad memories, you wouldn’t be able to be the person that you are. It’s just still an interesting and complex system, no?
Connie answered:
Tuesday, January 1, 2008 @ 12:41 am GMT-8
Ahh, I would do the month thing, if only I hadn’t already done it a couple months back.
Mm, the way memory works is indeed peculiar … and annoying at times, too. Haha. That sounded like a really great date. It won’t hurt to remember it even if you don’t want to, right? After all, you wouldn’t remember having a good time with him, even if it was temporary.
Maria stated:
Wednesday, January 2, 2008 @ 3:47 am GMT-8
Connie,
I get what you’re saying. But like I said to Sara, I just wish it wasn’t so bittersweet… less bitter, more sweet please.
And yes, memory can be annoying, especially when you’ve hidden a Christmas gift and now you cannot find it for the life of you…
Brenda commented:
Thursday, January 3, 2008 @ 9:15 am GMT-8
I always wondered the same thing. It’s weird, and actually pretty annoying. I can remember bits and pieces of grade 1, but I can’t remember whether or not I asked my dad a question 5 minutes ago.
I never really thought about it that way either.
Anyway, hope youre having a good holiday!
Marsha remarked:
Friday, January 4, 2008 @ 10:56 pm GMT-8
Yeah, I don’t remember what I did last week, or two weeks ago but I remember the stupidest things, lol. They say that emotions are tied to memory as well as our senses, or something like that. That’s why we remember certain things? Yeah, I think that’s it, haha.
Joel expressed:
Saturday, January 5, 2008 @ 12:08 pm GMT-8
I remember doing this tag! Came here via blog365
Happy blogging
Thao answered:
Monday, January 7, 2008 @ 12:21 pm GMT-8
Yes, remembering great memories like that can sometimes be hard or upsetting, but I would take a good memory that didn’t end up in something great later over a bad memory anyday. I’ve always been fascinated by what I remember myself, sometimes it’s great, sometimes it’s trivial, or even horrible. Whatever the reasoning, I think that the memories our brains choose to hold onto make us what we are at the present.
He might not be thinking about the same thing you are NOW or ever, but eventually, you’ll replace that memory with one that you’ll share with someone more important later.
Kimba typed:
Tuesday, January 8, 2008 @ 9:37 am GMT-8
I totally agree “Without the bad memories, you wouldn’t be able to be the person that you are.”
Maria expressed:
Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 6:23 pm GMT-8
Brenda,
I wonder what drives us to remember the most mundane of things, you know? And I’m like you too; I can’t remember if I did something five minutes ago but will remember it about half an hour later.
Maria commented:
Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 6:26 pm GMT-8
Marsha,
I wonder then, what emotion is tied to my remembering the time when called my kindergarten teacher fat? Lol. Okay, that one I can figure out since I did get in trouble for that. But I guess that makes sense. You forget the easy stuff, like where you put your keys, because there’s no strong emotion attached to that.
Maria expressed:
Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 6:29 pm GMT-8
Joel,
Yeah, a lot of these tagging memes aren’t new. Happy blogging to you too!
Maria wrote:
Thursday, January 10, 2008 @ 6:31 pm GMT-8
Thao,
Thanks for those kind words and I do hope that I will meet someone who will replace or help mend what has been broken.
Memories are… tricky. But you’re right. It’s what we remember that helps us to become who we are.