Posted under: Current Songs

*Note: It’s of bad quality because of bandwidth and so you won’t feel so tempted to steal it.

Baby, baby, when we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped into one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden, you went and left
I didn’t know how to follow
It’s like a shot that spun me around
And now my heart left, I feel so empty and hollow

And I’ll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don’t even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It’s gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you’re the one to blame

And now I feel like, oh
You’re the reason why I’m thinking
I don’t wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess this is what I get
For wishful thinking
Should’ve never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
‘Cause now I’m using like I bleed

It’s like I checked into rehab
Baby you’re my disease
It’s like I checked into rehab
Baby you’re my disease
I gotta check into rehab
‘Cause baby you’re my disease
I gotta check into rehab
‘Cause baby you’re my disease

Damn, ain’t it crazy when your love slams?
You’ll do anything for the one you love
‘Cause anytime that you needed me I’d be there
It’s like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way that I was using you
But now that I know it’s not meant to be
You gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I’ll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don’t even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It’s gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you’re the one to blame

‘Cause now I feel like, oh
You’re the reason why I’m thinking
I don’t wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess this is what I get
For wishful thinking
Should’ve never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
‘Cause now I’m using like I bleed

It’s like I checked into rehab
Baby you’re my disease
It’s like I checked into rehab
Baby you’re my disease
I gotta check into rehab
‘Cause baby you’re my disease
I gotta check into rehab
‘Cause baby you’re my disease

Tags: good girl gone bad, lyrics, rehab, rihanna

Posted under: Relationships, Site, Thoughts

When you meet people, you never spill out all your deep dark secrets. However, what if, you know that one of your secrets is one of their deal breakers?

Yes, what usually happens on dates is that one is trying to impress the other. It’s natural and quite normal to withhold strange information, but is there a line to what you should or shouldn’t hold back? I don’t know if I’m making this as clear as I can, but maybe I’ll use a common bad habit as an example.

What if you are a smoker and generally, unless you know that your date smokes too, you know that most won’t date a smoker, right? I’ve made quite a few friends that I didn’t know were smokers, even occasional ones, until weeks, even months, after we had met. So if you hold that information back, knowing that it could be a major turn-off, would it be an entrapment of some sort?

Thinking about this some more, I finally found a personal example to this question: back when Stockton Boy and I had first met, he didn’t know about my history of infidelity. It would have been a deal breaker for him since almost all of his past girlfriends had been unfaithful to him. But I held that information back. Partly because I wanted to start off with a clean slate; I knew that even as friends, others look down upon cheaters as if they’re vermin. I didn’t like that feeling and so, I kept it private. It was also in part that I didn’t want him to look down on me. I wanted everything to be fun and by the time the topic came up, we were both too into each other to turn back.

In a way, I felt as if it could have been a trap. Of course, there was no malicious intent, no evil plan (”Muahahaha. He shall be mine!”), no ill-wish of any sort. Still though, it could seem as if I wanted to hook him first before he could run away.

Anyway, what are your thoughts on this? Would you consider it a trick, a trap? Or just the way that the dating world works? If you had bad habits, would you tell your date or would just let him/her figure it out later and hope that s/he doesn’t run?

Also, in small site updates, I’m currently working on my freelance web design website before I make the layout for this site. I’ve also included a “Current Songs” category for me to post lyrics to songs that I feel express my emotions at the moment.

Tags: bad habits, date, dating, entrapment, trap