Posted under: Other

I think after this year, I’m going to move out of my apartment. Yes, that means I have to dig up all the moving boxes again, but it will be worth it. The new owners of the building are profiteers and pretty much want to squeeze every penny we’ve got, so I’m pissed. I really, really hate this situation right now and I can’t wait until I get out of this place so I don’t have to deal with them anymore.

Posted under: Other

I remember visiting Fisherman’s Wharf recently and there was this dude who was doing some airbrush art. He was pretty awesome at what he was doing, but I think it was a lot easier for him since he was drawing the same things over and over. I mean, not exactly, but it was some variation of the Golden Gate, The Bay, and the high-rise buildings.

Posted under: Current Songs

*Note: It’s of bad quality because of bandwidth and so you won’t feel so tempted to steal it.

If only I had someone to treat me like this.

It’s you and me
Moving at the speed of light into eternity, yea,
Tonight is the night to join me in the middle of ecstasy.
Feel the melody in the rhythm of the music around you, around you
I’mma take you there, I’mma take you there
So don’t be scared
I’m right here baby
We can go anywhere, go anywhere
But first it’s your chance,
Take my hand come with me

It’s like I’ve waited my whole life
For this one night
It’s gonna be me, you and the dance floor
‘Cause we’ve only got one life
Double your pleasure
Double your fun and dance
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever girl forever
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever on the dance floor

Feels like we’re on another level
Feels like our love’s intertwined,
We can be two rebels
Breaking the rules me and you, you and I
All you got to do is watch me
Look what I can do with my feet
Baby feel the beat inside,
I’m driving you can take the front seat
Just need you to trust me
It’s like…

It’s like I’ve waited my whole life
For this one night
It’s gonna be me, you and the dance floor
‘Cause we’ve only got one life
Double your pleasure
Double your fun and dance
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever girl forever
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever on the dance floor

It’s a long way down,
We’re so high off the ground,
Sending for an angel to bring me your heart
Girl where did you come from
Got me so undone,
Gazing in your eyes got me singing what a beautiful lady
No “if”s, “and”s or “maybe”s
I’m releasing my heart and
It’s feeling amazing
There’s no one else that matters
You love me and I won’t
Let you fall girl
Let you fall girl
I won’t let you fall
Let you fall
Let you fall

It’s Like…!

It’s like I’ve waited my whole life
For this one night
It’s gonna be me, you and the dance floor
‘Cause we’ve only got one life
Double your pleasure
Double your fun and dance
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever girl forever
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever (ever, ever)
Forever on the dance floor

Tags: Chris Brown, Exclusive, Forever, lyrics

Posted under: Relationships

I was talking to my friend last night and I had told her that I wasn’t going to start a romantic relationship with anyone until I could be ready to love again. I said that it would be unfair to the other person if I was incapable of putting all of myself into the relationship if I was still badly hurt or broken.

So with that, it got me to thinking again. In a way, it’s a little like what I had mentioned before, the idea of keeping something from someone that could change the relationship. In a way, it’s similar and in a way, it’s not.

From the beginning, Stockton Boy told me that he was still hurt from his last relationship and that he would not be able to give me what I needed in terms of “normal” affection. Stupidly, I told him that I could wait, that I would wait it out and hope that he would someday say the things I so desperately wanted to hear.

And that, was my first mistake. I should have known from the beginning that it was going to be painful for me because I would crave the affection that he couldn’t give, because I would want him to tell me that he loved me and that he wanted to live his life with me. Of course, he didn’t and that’s what essentially broke us apart.

Yes, it was partially my fault because I should have known better, but in a way, I blame him for it too. He knew that he could not give me what I wanted, yet decided to pursue the relationship with me anyway. He should have tried harder to stop. He should have known never to fall for me in the first place. He should have known what he wanted before dragging me along with him. (Remember, I blame him partially.)

Was it really that hard to refrain? Even now, I have the decency to tell someone after a few dates that I’m not ready for a relationship, that I’m not looking for one. I tell him that in the beginning before he gets too wrapped up around me and so he knows where I stand. Was it so difficult for Stockton Boy to do the same?

What would you do? If you knew that your heart was too broken to fully commit into a relationship, what would you do? Would you tell the person and continue to build a relationship, or would you stop the relationship unless the other person was okay with it? Would you try to see if the person could be right for you and hope that this wonderfully amazing person could heal what was broken? Or would you limit yourself and tell the person that you cannot continue unless you two are at an understanding?

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Tags: heartbreak, heartbroken, heartless, love, relationship, Stockton Boy

Posted under: Blog365, Memes

So I was tagged to do a facts meme one year ago, but I suppose I can do it again. Besides, that list needs a little updating anyway. For example, I’m not allergic to the collar; I’m actually allergic to the cat.

This time, I was tagged twice. Once from Reggy and her list, and the second from Michael and his seven facts.

Well, here goes!

1. I love shoes and buying shoes. However, I have flat and wide feet, so it’s hard to find ones that I like.
2. Some of you may know that I’ve been obsessed with red, but you may not know that this was a relatively recent development. This whole red phase began about a year ago.
3. The only plant I’ve been able to keep alive is the bamboo plant.
4. My family is the most important thing in my life.
5. I prefer to have more guy friends than girls, but really, I just want girl friends that I know won’t cause me any trouble or drama. I envy those who have their “best friend” with them almost all the time.
6. Once I get married, the word “divorce” will no longer exist in my vocabulary. I’ll be married for life until death do us part.
7. My children will carry the middle names my father’s side of the family carries.

And those are my seven. The game of the meme is simple: 7 facts about you, then tag 7 people. This time, I’m going to tag: Chris, Julie, Joana, Marie, Gary, Michael A., and Mike. Some of you may have done previously, but if it wasn’t within the last few weeks, then I think y’all should do it again.

Have fun!

Tags: facts