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By: The MWF Read - 02/08/2008 | Saphrym

The MWF Read - 02/08/2008 | Saphrym — Sun, 10 Feb 2008 03:00:28 +0000

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By: Maria

Maria — Mon, 21 Jan 2008 03:21:43 +0000

Mikster,

I hope it’s ASAP too, but I feel as if things just keep piling on top of my “things to fix about me” list.

By: Mikster

Mikster — Sun, 20 Jan 2008 20:56:36 +0000

Hopefully this is something you can overcome…and as soon as possible. Best of luck… and stuff.

By: Maria

Maria — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 04:59:03 +0000

Bec, One, read the rules. Two, not wanting help is pretty much digging yourself deeper into your hole. As for my psychiatrist, I'm seeing him because I want to change my habits. And as a person who has sought medical help, I can advise you to do the same.

By: Maria

Maria — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 04:15:42 +0000

Kelly,

The thing, I never really put blame on anybody else. Sometimes, I’ll acknowledge the fact that someone else could have been a contributor, but rarely do I make someone else the wrongdoer.

By: Maria

Maria — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 04:14:23 +0000

AtomiK Kitten,

You’re right; I want to punish myself, but it’s also because I feel like I need to. It’s a complicated mess.

Medication has come up a few times, but neither of us have made a step into getting them for me.

I’d rather go through physical pain too.

By: Maria

Maria — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 04:04:00 +0000

Angela,

Yes, knowing is half the battle. It will take time, but I know I’ll get over this.

By: Bec

Bec — Fri, 18 Jan 2008 08:18:13 +0000

Hey there. I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a rough time. I cut myself sometimes, though my main solution to dealing with it all is through purging. I binge and then well… you know. I can’t say that I want to help but I certainly don’t want to feel this way. Whenever those dark and desperate times come to me… and I’m sure you feel like that too. It’s hard, right? When something just starts you off and you go down a road where you can’t seem to stop and the next morning, you’re like, fuck, what happened.

As a person who hasn’t sought medical help, i can’t advise you much. And truthfully, I don’t think I really want help at the moment. That’s how I deal with my problems and it’s alright I suppose. And if you feel the same way, some shrink with fancy words isn’t going to change your mind unless you yourself feel it’s time.

All the best.

By: Kelly

Kelly — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 13:40:10 +0000

Don’t worry about punishing yourself. I think we all do it. I do it to myself as well. Then a week later I realize who the real problem is.

By: AtomiK Kitten

AtomiK Kitten — Thu, 17 Jan 2008 00:42:24 +0000

You do not need to be hurt; you want to hurt. The difference between a need and a want is that a need is something you cannot live without. You can live without hurting yourself…right now you just choose not to do so. From one self mutilator to another…

I had to be (and am still on) put on medication to make me stop.

Physical pain is easier for some of us to deal with (hey I gave birth naturally…as in no drugs…to an 8 pound baby) than emotional pain.