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One of these days, I’ll have a purpose for this blog.
Of course, it will have more of a purpose as soon as I pay my hosting bill… which is as soon as I get paid…
Life is… well, life. I’ve had my ups and downs throughout this year and I’ve just started something new with someone I think is very special, kind, exciting, and definitely has potential to motivate me to better myself more than I try to already. I will admit that I am very scared because in terms of my feelings, there are similarities to how I felt when I first started with Stockton Boy. Yes, the situations are different, but I honestly haven’t felt this way about anyone since him, so yes, I’m quite scared.
However, the difference is this time, I’m definitely trying to communicate more about my issues and if I have fears about anything. I don’t want to end up surprising this new boy with anything and I want him to know how I feel as often as possible. I just really hope I don’t get hurt again.
I’ve already started my last undergraduate year in school. I’m trying to finish up my B.A. in Social Welfare. What I’ll do after college, I’m not sure yet. I know that I definitely want to go into the non-profit sector within the Asian Pacific American community, but in which field (mental health, education, youth, families, etc), I don’t know yet. I feel as if all issues are equally important, but I definitely have to decide where I want to be.
In addition to school, I’ve taken up quite a few roles.
- I’m a mentor for a 6th grader at one of the local elementary schools. She makes me feel old yet nostalgic all at once and I’m happy to see her so vibrant as she is.
- I’m also a co-director for Perspectives, a huge multicultural showcase that the student government puts on every year.
- I’ve also been accepted as one of the 20 pageant contestants for the Miss Vietnam Norcal – Intercollegiate.
- I’m training to be a student-to-student peer counselor where I’d essentially be able to help my fellow peers, students, with their issues ranging from school to relationships to work or whatever their needs are.
And surprisingly enough, I still feel as if I can do more, but when I look at my calendar, I know that I can’t afford to do so. But I’m excited to make this the best year that I have and can’t wait to see how everything turns out.
Miss all of you and I wish I were keeping up better in all of your lives. ♥
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Feeling like I can handle my life, feeling as if I’m finally worth the things that I deserve.
I know that lately, I may have come off as superficial. I joked about finding a man who had money and would take care of me. I joked about finding a man who I could easily dispose of. But what I really meant to say is that I know that I finally deserve someone better. Honestly, I don’t mind too much if he’s not wealthy, but I do want to know that I can be taken care of, because for once, I don’t want to feel as if I need to take care of him all the time, especially financially.
I’ve decided to create a new resolution, one that doesn’t necessarily need to start on the first of the new year. I want to be in a relationship that is worth my time. I don’t want to settle. I don’t want to find someone who’s not what I need and nothing like what I want. That means no men who can’t commit, no men who condescend me in every other conversation, no men with whom I feel no connection.
Every woman deserves the man that she deserves. Whatever her dream man may be, that’s who she should strive to find. If she wants a prince, she should find a prince, not a toad.
As for me, I want the prince, the knight, the savior. I want someone who will open doors for me, but will allow me to do my own things. I want someone who’ll make me feel special everyday by the little things he says. I want someone who’s going to take the time to think of me because I’m important enough to him for him to do so.
Now, don’t think I’m a selfish bitch or anything. When I fall for someone, I do many things for him. I send smiles; I take care of the little things so he won’t have to worry about it. Not to toot my own horn, I know that I’d make an awesome girlfriend. I just now need to find me an awesome boyfriend, one that I won’t be settling for.
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It’s been about a year after the meltdown I had. And despite everything that’s happened since then, from my continuation of staying his friend even when I knew it would hurt to my having to tell my parents that I was $6,500 in debt (not including loans), everything seems okay.
I’ll admit, it’s been tough, but without all the trials and tribulations that I had to go through, I wouldn’t be who I am today, whoever that may be. I know that I’ve still got things to work on, but with time, and only with time, do I pray that they will get better.
The boyfriend and I split a while ago and although it sucked, I was able to keep my head on my shoulders. I did a much better job of composing myself this time than I did last time, that’s for sure. Even though a part of me wants to run back, I know that I can’t invest my emotions and any more of my heart into someone who’s not right for me, no matter how good it feels.
Overall, I’m doing better and I’m excited for a new beginning next semester. It will be busy as all hell, but I’m anxious. Hopefully it won’t get any busier though; I’m on the verge of failing a class and if I fail, I’ll have to retake it next semester, on top of everything else that I need and want to do.
What are your favorite things about the holiday season?
I love the smell of the cold. I hate feeling the cold, but I love smelling it. And at least for now, I love the break from school. I want to go ice skating again!
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This might actually be an updated post now. I feel bad for not having blogged in the last month. Well, blogged here anyway because if you’ve been stalking (or just had a lot of time on your hands), then you would have noticed that my daily journal (or semi-daily) has been updated more frequently.
What’s the hold up? Well, if most of you know or have caught on, I like to write what I would consider a good post. A post that provokes thinking in a way that takes you outside of your usual bubble. However, as I’m about to briefly explain, I’ve been behind on being able to do that. Now, don’t get me wrong, the ideas have been coming up into my head, but I feel as if the thoughts aren’t honed well enough yet to be shared with the general public.
So yes, I am here explaining my partial absence with the online community. I’m still behind on replying to comments and visiting their respective websites. The semester started a little more than a month ago and although my classes aren’t that time consuming, my social events are. I’ve decided to join a culture club, more specifically, the Vietnamese Student Association. I’m connecting with people of a similar background and having a good time. I’ve also found myself a boyfriend too. Yes, I know, big step for me considering how the last one had painfully ended. But despite all the nasty past, I’m happy. Other things have been rocky, but at the moment, I’m happy. And I’m even happier knowing that I’ve found someone to bring the happy back. It’s just one big happy cycle.
I feel as if this time is such a busy time. I’ve got social events, school, boyfriend, and politics. Oh God, the politics. I’ve decided that I can’t stand to watch either debate. The Presidential debate consisted of two bickering men and the Vice Presidential debate was ridiculous. No candidate gave a straight answer and it was too frustrating to watch.
Anyway, this is midterm weekend and I need to get back to studying. But before I go, I will leave you with this question: Should you be looking for someone that makes you want to be a better person or should you invest more time to find that part in yourself that makes you want to be a better person?
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I think that a lot of my posts for the Blog 365 are going to be memes. But hey, at least it’s blogging, right?
Today’s meme comes from That’s My Answer!
It’s Appreciation Wednesday. Who and/or what do you appreciate today?
I appreciate knowing that there is someone who waited a year and a half for me. It makes me feel a little more special and nowadays, that’s something that I need.
I just hope that nothing catastrophic happens between us. I want to take it slow and he will definitely know that. I don’t want him to be the rebound guy at all and I seriously don’t want him to feel that way either.
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