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Single in College (28)

19.05.07

Posted under: Relationships

Why is it that the “ideal” college life means partying, drugs/pot, drinking, and most of all: the single life? I’ve noticed a little more lately that many students prefer to be single, just to know what it’s like not to be tied down in college. College is freedom. Freedom from parents mostly, but does that mean freedom from romance too?

Sure, there are always those with college boy/girlfriends, but I’ve noticed that many are still single, especially those who prefer to be quite social. Is that how it’s supposed to be though? In order to be a social person, you need to be single? Or can someone be able to do both?

What is this mystery, this desire to be unattached? Is being free really all that great? I watched the season finale of Grey’s Anatomy and Christina, after Burke broke up with her, yelled out “I’m free! I’m finally free!” but broke down crying after realizing that fact. For me, the message I pulled out was that Christina didn’t want to be free, she didn’t want to be liberated. She seemed miserable.

So, what’s the deal with the single life? What’s the hype? Is it all that great anyway? Sure, you don’t have anyone to “report” to, no one else to consider but yourself, but is it worth it? Or maybe it’s the idea that for the first three years of college, it’s okay for one to be single and “fun,” but after that, it’s about finding the right person and beginning to settle down. I honestly don’t understand what’s so special about wanting to be single in college. Or maybe I don’t like that idea because being single means there are so many choices to choose from to not be single.

I don’t know what I’m saying anymore. If someone can explain the whole notion better than I can, please do so because I’m just baffled.

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Please Erase My 1.5 Years (14)

17.03.07

Posted under: Relationships

Is it a tragedy to say that you wish you had never been with or met a particular person? Is it sad to say that you almost wish you had never allowed for things to happen the way they did happen with this person?

Unfortunately, I have come to realization that I need to say that.

This person and I had a relationship and during that relationship, I let a lot of things slide. I completely lowered my standards and thought that if I loved him enough, I could look past it. Looking back now, I see that it was a foolish decision to make and I would have been better off without him.

What brought this on was the fact that I could not pull one life-long lesson out of this relationship besides Don’t lower your standards again. In my few relationships, I have been able to apply some lesson to my better being, but with this, I am saddened to say that I regret it.

So here’s my question(s) for you: How do you prevent yourself from ever doing that again? For me, during that time, I had no problem with all of the things that disgust me now. So, how do you know? How do you determine the difference between what is socially acceptable and your personal feelings for something taboo? Looking back, I realize that I’m ashamed and quite disgusted with myself. How do you know? What if at the time, you just don’t care about it? Is love that blinding? Or is it not love, but some manifestation that you’ve created to justify what you’ve done and put yourself through? If you can easily fall out of love, then is it really love? Is it that one true love? For a person who says it more often than she should, how do you know if it’s the one that deserves to hear such precious words?

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